I hope no one ever finds this blog. But i want people to know that if I ever commit suicide, I would have made the decision in a lucid moment.
I have been very sad since my parents divorced. Once they divorced, there was a moment where I realized that they were not infallible. My mother and my father were human, and I was given all their faults, especially my fathers. And along with that, I was also given a decent intellect, and I realized that I was more intelligent than my parents. And that’s when I realized that the course that my parents wanted me to go down was imperfect, and there was no such thing as a “perfect” course, and they were just striving for something that was more perfect than what their parents gave them.
I just don’t know what to do anymore. I would probably listen to my parents, but I have gotten to a point where I feel I am better at deciding than they are. They are just as infallible as I am. I am more educated, and I know smarter than they are. Maybe I should just end it. My best years are behind me. And maybe I am just saying that because I am single. I DONT KNOW.